Directordenial, 34

About me. Hmm.. Well I'd like to say I'm casual and outgoing, but that's so far from the truth, it's not even funny. We're supposed to tell the truth in these things right? Well I'd hate for someone to read this thinking I'm something they want me to be, so after you read this and you still aren't sick and disgusted by me then I'd love to receive a message. My days start out at night, for I work the Graveyard Shift. The only appropriate time for someone like me to be in public is when the rest of the world is at rest. By now you should know I'm as social as a rock. Once in awhile when I'm not playing vampire I do make it out in daylight, or try an work up enough courage to shop at my local supermarket. It is a chore for me to face anyone.  If you haven't click the back button yet, then please read on, I can assure you I'm not as bad as you think. I've come so far, an am now restoring trust in those who care to stay. When I'm not sleeping my 12 hours a day I tend to have a few drinks to calm my nerves and keep my panic attacks suppressed. I very much enjoy alcohol. It allows me to be "Me", or maybe the me I want to be. Im working to fix this though. I would love to walk up to someone an just shake their hand an start conversing. But then I think, "Why are they talking to me? Do they really care what I have to say? Do I even care? What was that black smudge on this fellows hand? I need to go wash my hands." Its best to just avoid that scenario entirely. Back to the booze, I'm no alcoholic, I drink 2 days outta the week, which are my days off from cleaning my castle on the top of Transylvania. I'm very prioritized. When I have something to do i make it happen. There's no maybe or I'll finish tomorrow. I tend to get obsessive, always compulsive but I have no disorder. I think.. Shall we move on to hobbys? If it's electronic then I have it, an if I don't have it then I want it, but If stop wanting it then I probably bought it and never told you.