Coolmatt, 44

Who knows?? mystery I would have described myself as an Agnostic because although I may have had some personal experiences such as visions and dreams. I can not personally say that they are true, what is true to me. Is it a view of mine or other people's. As I have not made clear beliefs I have studied Christianity, and a number of other religious belief systems, as Alistrar Crowley reported said before his death "I am perplexed". Going further than that I would say that it is fear of change or uncertainity that frightens me but also it gives me excitement. It is wonderful, recently the idea you can believe what you want has come to my mind. What happens when you die? Where does your soul go to? What is the soul? Do I even exist? Who am I? Why am I here? Where is here, could it be a Matrix? or Hollodeck? Could I be a character in Vogayer, actually on a hollodeck sounds weird but what is the ultimate nature of reality? What is real? It boils down to my truth, and I think that I know some things but I sometimes worry that other people don't agree but then I can feel incorguence, so whatever. I can be very deep. Why is the sky blue? What is death? What is the meaning of life? Is there a meaning? Why does there have to be a meaning to life? Such eternal questions that are deep and profound although I have meditation for years, I seek and I do not find, I find emptiness and desires that are short lived and not lasting happiness. Desirous attatchments for money, s--, success but lasting happiness, maybe the greatest happiness or success is being in touch or attunned to your own soul. I think I put that because I would be a hypocrite if I said I had figured things would when I am still search, maybe the path or journey is the whole point rather than the getting there, it might be more about the search than the target. Love, God is love.